When she died I was there to hold your hand
As you were there to hold mine.
When he left we held each other still
And cried emptily all through the night.
You softly wiped the tears from my eyes
With your skin brushing lightly over mine,
You comforted me as no other could,
My one and only unfailing light.
I know what it is you mean to me
But I could never say it aloud;
No-one else could come close to you,
You are all that is left of my world.
We have always been together, my brother,
Not yet torn apart by fate;
As all those close to us disappear
And many others are enveloped in hate.
Why do we still stay here alone,
When we could follow them into the light?
Now that she has gone forever
What is left holding us back?
We gave our promise only until death,
As much as it hurts me to say;
Only until her mortal flame withered
And her bright light faded to black.
I know that you loved her as I did,
I can see your heartbreaking pain.
I listened as she said goodbye to us
And watched your face as you heard the same.
I thought we could always protect her
From all of the darkness and fear,
But when she died by her own hand
We could find nobody to blame.
To seek revenge would have been easier,
To try and justify the pain.
I would have wandered to Earth forever
With you eternally by my side.
We would find them together, eventually,
Bright sword drawn beside sword,
To hunt them, to kill them, destroy them,
They would have nowhere left to hide.
But we must sit here quietly in the dark
Consoling ourselves with lies.
She won’t we waiting for us westwards,
You know that as well as I.
The last ships will soon be leaving
Carrying those who waited too long
For loved ones lost in depths of time
Though they know they will never come.
Father knew it would happen like this
When he sailed away all that time ago,
He knew it would never be easy for us
but I don’t think he dared to say.
I imagine him sat on the shore now
With mother and our family by his side,
Waiting for that last boat to arrive
And sail gloriously into the bay.
The passengers would disembark slowly
And he would see that we were not there,
He would know that we were lost here forever
And our sisters’ fate we had chosen to share.
Would you allow that, my twin?
To know how we made them feel?
But if we packed up and left home now
Would we always be that moment too late?
Do you think that the ships would be waiting for us?
Knowing that we still dwell here in grief?
Do they think that we will join them one day?
Or have they given up on that hope?
It doesn’t matter to me anymore
What it is you think we should do
I don’t care where we live or if we die
As long as I am always with you.
I know that you will never read this
As I write, I know you are asleep.
When you wake, I couldn’t bear to tell you
You seem to do nothing but weep;
But I bind myself to you, brother,
as she bound herself to him
Whether you wish to fade here as she did
Or cross miserably over the sea.
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